isn't it ironic

again, this is of course random, because its me. after i finished my excruciatingly painful adv. orgo final, i started thinking about judgment. with me i think that i judge people on their actions towards me and other people. i don't think i judge on looks too often. however, i expect people to judge me on what i have or what i don't have, what i was blessed with too much of or too little. i expect people to be hella shallow. often i get what i expect. so to change the world or at least my sphere of the world do i need to expect more. i am thinking yes. however, this little philosophical theory doesn't consider how incredibly hard it is to be optimistic. but if i expect myself to be optimistic...i guess i will be. if i expect cau to be fabulous it will be...if i expect to get into harvard i will?