i am

a large part of my coming of age process has been revealing who i am to people. some things that i knew about myself or felt about myself i never told anyone. so ur thinking oh...she's gay. no i'm buddhist and i'm black. these two things aren't very common among Black folk in the U.S. so a lot of my friends don't know that this is who i am because i am too afraid to tell them. i don't want to be damned to hell or anything, but its not fair to share only half of myself. it is a pretty huge part of my life. i have an altar in my room, pray twice a day (for about an hour on a good day), and try to live my life by the tenants. ugh! i'm buddhist and it works for me. i'm not really one for justifying decisions to people. so yeah. that's it.